Setting My Sights On Heaven!

I feel an even stronger desire to share with you the inner thoughts of a terminally ill person.  This blog started out showing you how strong I am and how to keep your head straight in the face of diversity.  Now, this blog has morphed into a documentation of how powerless we really are as humans.  God has an ultimate plan and nothing we do can change that plan.  I try to set an example, as I believe we all should strive.

I still look forward to sharing my story with many people.  I pray that I can stand up and make a difference in the lives of as many people as I can reach.  I am just not sure that I am going to reach that goal.

As the pain continues to increase and my quality of life decreases I find myself getting closer to God. From a spiritual standpoint I am very excited to make that ultimate trip (you know I love to travel to new places).  What I am not prepared for is leaving my daughter.  I find myself crushed over the thought of her watching her mother die.  I am blessed to have a mother that is still very involved in my life.  It hurts me to think that she may not have that joy.  I pray that the example that I have set and the difference that I make is in her.

Some of you may think that I need counceling.  Maybe I do, but I guarantee that my thoughts and feelings are very common in someone in my situation.