Everyone is wondering how I am doing with the possible big increase in the growth of my cancer. (do you notice that I own the cancer, as in "my cancer"...not sure why I do that. Maybe because it is part of me) I really am not excited about it. I get sick of dealing with it, but I know I am ready for the next phase.
"God does not give us more than we can handle." How many times have you heard that? Of course, I believe it, but there are days that I wonder. Most of the time, I am able to put it in God's hands. The issue is that I can't go a minute without thinking about it. Cancer is so widespread in my body and it is such a huge part of me that it is hard to forget about, especially when the pain is getting worse.
I can lye flat on my back and feel the tumors in my belly. They feel hard and are everywhere. Some of them hurt when I press on them. As far as the lymph nodes go, I only can feel two in my neck. They feel like they have remained the same size. Other lymph nodes are so far internally that I can't feel them.
Anyway, I am o.k. with the changes. It motivates me to continue getting my affairs in order.
No comments:
Post a Comment