Although, 95% of the time I am o.k. with where I am with this darn cancer...I still have moments that I feel pretty lost. I was walking around the house a few days ago, just praying and looking for direction and dissernment, when a friend called. She snatched be back on track. She told me to stop reading the negative stuff on the internet and to get away from negative people. Althought, I am so pragmatic that I sometimes let that creep into negativity. That negativity is from Satan.
I am over here seriously trying to cycle Grace. Whatever happens, happens... It will not be because I did not go to the right doctor or because I did not stay on a specific diet. These judgmental people need to take a walk.
Anyway, I found it amazing that at the moment that the phone rang, I really needed to hear that precious voice on the other end. She coached me on how to focus on God by giving me a wonderful link to an online pastor that has dealt with terminal cancer. I have another tool in my tool-box to use when I need it.
I may have derailed for a few minutes, but I am chugging along and trying so hard to choose my next treatment.
And that timing is God! Amen!!
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