This Causes Cancer...That Prevents Cancer!

It seems that about once a month or so, we here or read that another study has come out about how good or bad certain food or habits are for us.

Here are a few of things that I have heard about:

Exercise: I have heard multiple times that athletes have an extremely low incidents of cancer.

Sunshine:  I have read somewhere that people need 20 - 30 minutes of sunshine a day to help prevent cancer.  We get our vitamin D from the sun and that is a huge cancer fighter.

Coffee:  There have been articles out in the past few years about the benefits of coffee.   One cup a day prevents cancer.  Have you heard the one about the coffee enemas?

Stress:  I think that we all know that stress kills.   But MD Anderson did a study that proves stress causes cancer.

Pureed Asparagus:  Two tablespoons a day curses cancer.  A doctor told me this just today.

Green Tea:  Drinking this tea every day will prevent cancer.

I could go on.   The problem is that some people get great results with some of these things, but other can do the exact same thing and see no results.

Missing Work!

I have always had the attitude to give more than I take.  I feel terribly guilty that I am getting paid sick leave and I am not doing much for it.  I know how the system works...I have just never liked working the system.

My staff are doing a fabulous job in my absence.  I am not surprised because I know what they are capable of.  They show me phenominal work everyday.  But they take my work along with their's and they keep gettting it done.

I get all kinds of advice, "ah!  let it go...it will be there when you get back".  First of all, this past month has sucked all desire to care, right out of me.  I have not had the energy to really follow up with my office.  And secondly, my job is not one that you can just walk away from.   People have to be in place to take up the slack,

I really can not blog about this sojourn without frequently mentioning my office staff.  I love them!  They are one of the most important parts of my life.

What Would You Really Do!

Maybe this is a bit morbid, but I think these thoughts go through our heads when we think of a friend that is dying from cancer.

How would I feel if I were told I had stage 4 cancer?

Would you go to your knees and thank God?  Would you go to bed and cry for days.

How would you act when you and the doctors have decided that the disease has a hold on you and it  will never let go?  Will you live like every day is your last?  Or would you snuggle up close to God and live the way HE wants you to?

Maybe you would get even with the people that have wronged you throughout your life.  Or maybe you will double down on your prayers for these people.

Will you care less of what people think of you or will you care more?

Will you filter your words more or will you just let those honest thoughts fly?  Those of you that know me well are giggling at this one.  Because I have never really used a filter.  I always figured that you deserve for someone to tell you, so it might as well me be.

Hmm!

Lung Capacity!

Evidently, lung capacity is important.  Right this minute I can only inhale 1000 ml of air.  I need to get up to 2500 ml of air.  I have a meter that I use to measure my success.

Fluid is taking up the rest of my lung capacity.  The more active and up-right I am the better my chances are of getting this fluid to dry up.

I was so sick after chemo that I could not hold my head up for a week.   Lying down all of the time is what started this mess in my lungs.  This is not pneumonia...I do not have a fever.  However, it could turn into that very quickly.

Denied!

National Institute of Health called.  I am not elligible for any of their cancer trials at this time.  Although, I have tumors all over the place, none are large enough to sample.  This does not mean that I will not be elligible in the future.  I will send my next CT scan to them and if the disease has advanced then I may be in.

I hope it does not come to that.  I hope that the chemo that I am getting, now, helps.

It Just Keeps Getting Better!

O.K.  That is sarcasm!  I am so over this.  

My lungs are filling with fluid.  I could feel it, but an x-ray, today, confirmed it.  There really is not much that can be done about it.  It is building in my lungs because I don't breathe deeply enough.  I don't breathe deeply enough because my abdomen is so full of fluid and it hurts to breathe.

I am doing deep breathing exercises, now  Let's hope that helps.  If it gets worse I have to have it drained.  That is a bigger ordeal when they have to go between your ribs to insert a drainage tube.  I went through this the first time I had cancer.  

I get to have all of the fun!  Keep, Praying!  I still need you!

I Didn't Mean to Scare Ya' !

What a crazy few weeks.  Remember I had told you that I had to get the excessive fluid drained every few weeks, from my abdomen.  Finally, after have to go in every week, they put in a permanent drain so that I can do it my self when the pressure is to much to handle.  I am o.k. with it.

Then I got chemo over a week ago.  It was supposed to be an easier cocktail to tollerate.  Someone was mistaken or I had every negative side effect possible.  I threw up my toes.

I begged several people to take me to hospice.  This has been the sickest and the most pain I have experienced to date.

I am focussing on the dream that it will get easier.  I really do praise God for the pain and the suffering.

I have details to tell you.  I just got up enough energy to do this post.